introversion

The new blogger, WordPress, was installed because of spamming problems with b2’s lack of filtration. Well, WordPress really doesn’t have a filtration system either, although it has a moderation option. I thought to myself, ok, this’ll do, John’s server won’t be crashed and I can still deal with comments. So, this past week, John and square away the e-mail problems and finally I’m receiving the e-mail from this that I should have.

Today I open up my e-mail and find 96 e-mails for comments that need moderation. All of it is spam. There’s no way I’m going to deal with this everyday. So I’ve spent a nice half an hour, 45 minutes going back to every individual post and made sure that comments weren’t allowed.

So no more comments. Which doesn’t make much of a difference now does it? =D Yes, yes, my life is too drawl to comment on.

Now for a fearsome rant that includes this journal, my life, and school: (more…)

Ah, feeling loved. Amazing the amount of concern saying I didn’t feel well got me. It was sweet and appreciated. You guys are good to me. =D

Exhibition (To Share Your Stage)

I saw you at Center, seduced by the fountain I was, and thus naturally drawn to where you were and just as enchanted by the sight of you. You were with your fellows, all of you dressed in your dark colors, yet somehow oblivious to one and all. Neither friend nor stranger caught your attention and such was the treatment you afforded me. But I was content to simply watch.

How you reveled in your freedom! Dunked yourself into that welling water eschewing all permission and propriety, perched at the top of the cascade that so delighted my ears! Dipped beneath the waters, let it wash over you, tipped your head back in satisfaction.

And I, the voyeur, watched with unabashed stares, found joy in your enjoyment.

Then you leapt high and clear from those crystal waters and abandoned this world. You soared above us all on another plane of existence.

How I longed to join you. But, alas, I do not have wings.

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Essay done and printed out. With an extra space. Dammit. But since I don’t like to waste paper, it will remain with an extra space. It’s not like I’m going to get an A on it anyway (gr).

In other news, the symphony was muy divertido. We saw Verdi’s “Messa da Requiem.” The coming of the apocalypse anyone? Well, there were enough Dies Iraes to make you think so. Also, strange people in Denny’s. We might have been included in that category. Good times. We need to go to another symphony and just have a fun night. Thanks to ze people who came and for Christina for driving!

Also completed another set of FMA themes. I’ll archive ‘em here, I suppose. I think I’ll be really lazy and just use word.

And a very random note for me: Music of the Spheres.

I just wrote the shittiest essay… I’m afraid to think that I’m going to be turning this in. Oh God.

Oh my God. Literally. The forces of this world work in mysterious ways. You, too, can own a nourishing piece of God (but lactose intolerants beware!)!

Quick recap of recent happenings and some thoughts off the top of my head:

So the end of the quarter is coming up. …Yeah. I just need to pass this math exam (which I didn’t study for) and the Spanish midterm tomorrow and then get this paper written somehow. Oh, and not forget to sign up for classes on Friday. And then survive finals. That’s all. Really.

Under Lock and Key

At home, I never locked my bedroom door. Just closing it was enough and even that, rarely. You drove me to this, or some fanciful thought of you did. The thought of you visiting when I’m not here, the doorknob yielding at your touch, the door swinging open under your gentle, cautious direction, and you entering with curious eyes, assessing eyes, free to avail yourself of everything in this room. This room, some fifteen feet by ten, containing things you neither need nor could carry away easily. Desktop computers, an old TV few ever notice, and books that, if they held any significance for you, you’d probably already possess; the other things, those small valuables easily pocketed, I’d have taken with me. It’s likelier I’ll misplace them on my own without your help relieving me of them.

Nonetheless, when I leave the room I jiggle the handle, relock the door, check again.

My bedroom door has become the front door of my thinly veiled privacy.

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Three more “Around Campus” mini… things. Blurbs?
3.) Classroom Dining
4.) Hieroglyphics
5.) Close Encounters
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A B+ on my first English paper… bummed… wanted an A. My TA’s comments are also nearly impossible to read. Hmm… looks like I’ll finally have to break out of AWP (but it’s so mindless to follow). Oh God, I don’t want to write an explication. (I actually was into doing the SGGK paper; who knows how this one will turn out.)

So, the honors seminar yesterday was a little… crazy. It started out fine. I mean, the guy had some really good concerns he was bringing up about resources and our world, global warming, and all that jazz; sure, even then I didn’t agree with some of the things he was saying (or maybe it was just the way in which he said it; really abrasive and in-your-face). And then came the end. Oh my god. Basically he said, “End of the world in 50 years. We need to reduce the population. We don’t need to spend money in Iraq; spend it on birth control here. We need abortions…” and I just thought, “Oh my god. I’m pro-choice, but I swear this guy is crazy!” It was this crazy propaganda. Though it was funny that some of the P.R.E.P. (Population Reduction and something about the environment) had “Stop the Lawless Cowboy” on the back… who wasn’t stopped.

Today, Tamal, a guy in my Spanish conversation class, was wearing a black shirt with the words “R.I.P. AMERIKA” on it in duct tape. There was supposed to be a “riot” here? AHAHA. Tamal said it best after Eric asked him about his shirt: “UCSD doesn’t have enough spirit to riot.”

Okay, this thing is the new blogger. John had some problems with spam, so he suggested switching to word press. You may have noticed this thing has a crazy layout (stolen from somewhere) and since I’m too lazy to actually try to customize it myself and this layout looks so much better than anything I could do, it’s going to remain like this. I’ll get around to bringing links back over and whatnot. In due time.